Randomly speaking out of turn...

Life is hard period. I think though,that when we become mom's...then it becomes just a little more harder. You not only have you to take care of,and keep alive..but you have this special little mini you...to think about.

I tell you. I didn't realize how difficult it would be with 2 little one's in diapers at the same time. They're a yr apart :) so it was definately trying at times.. but what isn't I guess now...
I tell ya what is...I realize that yes other people out there have it worse off than I do..but for once..as bad as it sounds I am NOT looking out that window right now. I have to look at my son and all the things he's overcome and will have to yet overcome.

Let me tell you about him first,that way what he has doesn't define him to anyone (not saying it does,but there are some out there that think differently) :)

He is Taylor Coy Ivy,and he is 12 yrs. old. He likes play nerf guns,and games just like any other little boy his age. Only thing is...he has

OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Obsessive_Compulsive_Disorder

Tourettes Syndrome:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tourettes_Syndrome
and

Sensory integration dysfunction:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sensory_integration_dysfunction

He is the cutest lil boy I have ever seen. Hmm,yes I guess you can say I am biased. He is my son after all,and I Love him with every ounce of me,and Love his sister more than anything also.. :)
He is very lovey to me (which I am eating up,cause his sisters the opposite,hehe), he is getting though now to where when they leave to go anywhere,especially school he kisses me behind the door and he calls it our secret kissies :) I don't care,I still love it!

I don't think it would be as hard if I had someone to talk to about it.
I miss my MIL she passed away in 10-15-1999,and she LOVED Abby. She was SO helpful to me.
She was so tickled when Dan,and I told her I was expecting (Taylor) and she just couldn't wait. She didn't get to see him physically,he wasn't born until May 13,2000. I know she is watching us wherever she is in the universe..

I don't have  relationship with my own mother. I just feel for my health (and past health issues) it's best I just illiminate all the stress so there goes about 90% if it,I don't speak to either of my (2 older) sisters. I talk to my dad every now and then. It's strange cause all but my middle sister lives 10 min. away..it's ok though. You get used to it.

Plus it's not like I had great happily married people romodels anywho. My husband and I are no strangers to showing affection in front of my kids,I feel it helps them understand the healthy love,and relationship..well that I basically longed for,and never saw.

Taylor is the funniest little guy you can come across...when he was little he couldn't talk (not until he was around 4,and then it was baby noises,but he couldn't never say I love you too,so when someone would say I Love you TayTay he'd smile real big,and say toooooo lol it was the cutest thing. He would "imitate' by motions the Scream Ghost Face Killer he would put one hand on his lil forehead,and open his mouth real big tilt his lil head down til he was looking at you through the tops of his little eyes,and a hand on his chin...LOL I guess he thought that would temporarily stretch his face lol...silly kid.

He is really laid back,and he's real clean in his room...I accidentally bumped his little car,and tried to move it exactly how he had it,and he came in from school and said mommy have you been in my room,lol..WHOOPS :) yes I am guilty haha.